so its 1:47 & HA! who knew, i can't sleep.
soooooo, my mama is in town till Sunday!!!
she's in bed, i couldn't sleep. I've been working on this killer song for a week.
eeeek, that rhymes. lol there she is, the woman who made, makes me believe in myself!
sooooo, can i give you girls some advice....?
I realized tonight & its hard sometimes. Life. Love. Happiness. ( so generic i know... )
I know I'm young & haven't been through as much as some people, but I'm still strong, wise & want to help others... well so i believe i am. dating... i don't get caught up in it very easily. i don't do alot of it. good men dont come around very often. im gonna get heart felt for a second lol get use to it!
my mother tried to set me up tonight.... jeeze one night out and she's after the first guy she meets for me. lol
thanks mom... but it cant go that way.... i moved here out of a 5 year relationship, i gave everything, every part of me to him and received little back. its sad because he was, is a good hearted human being just not the "right" one for me. i have met knew good guys here in Nashville, but none that have stuck to me. ya know? stuck... like really have been overly gracious, nice, wel-manored, i don't have a check list - but not a one that i can say id take home to the family. i have never been out on a date. not even with my ex serious boyfriend. so this past saint patty's i went on my first date. I've had a crush on this guy since i moved to Nashville 8 months ago. "I" finally got the nerve up to hangout with him, waited a few days played it cool, then surprisingly he texted me. ( hold up... texted... he should have called like a man. i didn't mind the text though ) lol ;) then he asked me out for Saint Patty's day. i was all excited. it was a nice day/night. this was around a 21 hour date. now he... picked me up, opened the car door, kisses, dancing, drinks, food... the whole nine yards... OK sooo date was over. i played it cool. i had a crush. didn't text didn't call... wanted to do it the "right way" since i really like him. almost a week & a half goes by & no call, no text, no nothing from him. I'm thinking... jeeze what went wrong. we had a such a nice night... lets get this straight now, i am not bashing, nor will ever bash anyone... no bad talk, this is not what this is! he is a human being too. but guys come on... if your going to put so much effort into someone, then not do anything to follow up, why start? get our hopes up to get to know you then drop us like we're going outta style. like oh here's one, if i don't like her ill throw her out and on to the next one. sorry honey, that's not how it works. well it shouldn't work that way. I'm a good, nice girl, with good intentions. I'm not some crazy phyco, obsessed fan, nor am i a wackadoodle. girls out there, you agree? we're just good girls, no strings, drama or craziness attached and you guys out there are missing our goodness... :) while trying to get with ms. easy britches. i made him breakfast for pete sake.
we agreed to be friends and the rest will be history. because i am a "human" being, a good girl who does see outside of the box when it comes to this stuff. also girls, if you really like the guy, take it slow... i should've listened to myself. maybe things would have turned out differently... i do kick myself. don't rush, even if you like the guy. no one nights. no over doing it. no too many kisses. lead him on a little. make him want to figure you out more... make him work for a change. well, next time, think like you, not like what a guy or one of your girl friends would do. do you. its a bumming feeling i know. i can give great advice to my girl friends or be my best guy friends wing chick but when it comes to dating advice for myself its awful, i drive my friends crazy because I'm so bad at it. from now on, I'm just going with the flow, with my head where it needs to be and my goals set in the right direction. if its right, you wont have to over analyze, over think, over do, it will just come naturally. even though i thought it did. but besides the point! do you. and guys why start if your not going to follow through...?
so girls... all I'm saying is, watch out for your selves... your strong, independent, bright, young, the world get ready for us, woman and these butt heads, although they may be cute, aren't ready for us... their loss, but its their choice. so don't get down. be positive. he's out there, if your looking for Mr. right, but in the mean time if you focus on your goal of why you moved to this town, once your settled with yourself... he'll most likely pop up with a big ol' smile on his face just when you need him!! hmmmm... yeah. life isn't about finding a sole mate. its about finding your best friend.
goodnight girls. keep up the good work!
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